How does repeated failure make you feel?
Blossomo asked:
Please vent your frustration, anger and sadness in the most colorful terms possible. Feel free to let your hormones do the talking, and don’t censor for the faint of heart or for those who might chastise you for being so negative.
This entry was posted
on Monday, March 8th, 2010 at 12:24 am and is filed under Playground.
You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed.
Both comments and pings are currently closed.
Please vent your frustration, anger and sadness in the most colorful terms possible. Feel free to let your hormones do the talking, and don’t censor for the faint of heart or for those who might chastise you for being so negative.
I feel like the receiving end of an epic beat-down by a playground bully, and I feel like my heart gets ripped out of my chest in a bloody mess every time Aunt Flo arrives. Some days, I feel like I’m drowning, and while there are life vests for everyone else, there just isn’t one for me.
I didn’t thumbsdown anyone, so please don’t be angry with me.
Jasmine
March 11th, 2010 at 12:14 pm
Layla
I feel the same way. Every month I think I’m pregnant and than AF shows up. Everyone else around me gets pregnant so fast whether they want it or not and they ask me when am I gonna give my son a sister or brother. I get so mad because it’s not as easy for me as other people. Once I start to feel cramps I know my period is about to start and I don’t Evan want to see when I go to the bathroom!! I get so frustrated and mad. And it seems like another month is so far away. This month I tried on my fertile days, which was the first time to do that and AF is due tomorrow but I know it’s coming because my breasts feel like last month and I get headaches before I get it too and that happened yesterday. So I already know I’m not pregnant again!!! (sigh) It’s so hard to forget about it like some people say to do. I think about it everyday at all times it’s impossible not to think about it.
March 14th, 2010 at 4:15 pm
Leah
Wow, that is deep. The way u mention it explains it well… i feel the same at times…what can we do? We wish hope and pray and what do we get…AF. or BFN! It sucks. I dread it. I hate it. It makes me go insane and make me feel like im good for nothing. Sometimes i feel like im not even capable of becoming pregnant, it hurts so bad and i just cry. But i know in my heart that one day it will happen so that at least brings some of my hopes back up somehow. This wait really is killing me slowly and i feel like everyone who wants it should have a chance …why not? Why the little sleeze balls that are AFRAID of getting pregnant or are stupid and keep getting abortions? Why not us who have been waiting so long, us who dream about it every night and wake up thinking of it all day and night. Its a mystery. For now all we can do is pray and believe it will soon happen. Till then…just dream.
March 17th, 2010 at 10:00 pm
James
Maybe you are trying too hard to get pregnant. I have friends obsessed with becoming a Mum. But, they just think about it constantly. Once they decided to chill out and relax over a period of time they became pregnant.
So, just relax, think about other things, and let your body do the talking so to speak.
I wish you every success for the future, and maybe once you become pregnant, you will fall pregnant easier in future.
Thinking of a chilled out Mum to be.
Take care,
UK Mum
March 18th, 2010 at 7:43 am
Valeria
Hi,
Your question really touched me.
You’re not failures, please don’t think that, I’m sure your husbands and partners don’t think that!!
My friend tried for 7 yrs, she had IVF which cost a fortune and nothing worked.
After all that time, money and despair it happened – naturally!!!
She now has 3 children who are 7, 5 and 4. Her problem – She tried too hard and when she gave up trying it happened!!
There is a light at the end of it all and pray for your miracle.
To you and all you ladies who feel this way – Good Luck, think positive and you are NOT failures.
March 21st, 2010 at 8:26 am
Carter
I feel the same way too. I feel like the universe is taunting me sometimes. There are all these people that I see that get knocked up and still drink and do drugs, not caring about the little life they have inside of them. Pregnancy test commercials are ALWAYS on! There is always a pregnant woman around every corner. It’s like the universe is saying, na-na-na-na-na-na! they are pg and you aren’t! Thanks for letting us vent! Baby dust to you!
March 24th, 2010 at 7:14 pm
Sofia
If I hear one more person tell me to relax I will scream. My ovaries don’t function well and my hormones are all out of whack, they have been all of my life, and I have not spent the past 36 years in a stressed state. Relaxing has NOTHING to do with it.
It is disappointing. I just finished round 3 of Clomid, and while I might have ovulated, I failed my post-coit test, so it looks like nothing is going to happen for me this month, either.
March 25th, 2010 at 1:30 am
Mariah
I just want to go on record to say that the whole just relax and it’ll happen schtick is a load of junk and not very helpful. I find that the people who say this most often are those who have never gone through infertility.
As for feeling like a failure, I do every month. The feeling was particularly bad when I finally did get pregnant – just to miscarry the day after my first prenatal appointment.
I hope for the best every month and expect the worst. Here’s hoping for this month.
Good luck to everyone ttc.
March 26th, 2010 at 3:44 am
Taylor
My sister has had 8 abortions EIGHT!!!! It pisses me off soooo bad because I try so hard every month!! NOTHING I would do anything for just one lil’ bundle of joy! Its all Im asking for. For me to be someones WORLD! But no every month time and time again AF shows up… Its hard I just have to keep telling myself that my time will come and every thing happens for a reason.
My AF is due today and so I dont know I pray to god that this is it. But we will have to wait and see… I wish all you ladies the best of luck TTC
March 28th, 2010 at 1:15 pm
Aiden
I get freakin ticked. There I said it. I have sex just to make a baby some times cause I really am too tired but for the sake of conceiving I’ll do it.
And I’m sick of other people in the office being pregnant and asking when I’m going to have a second baby. Should I let them know that I am tired and feel like crap because I have to wait up til midnight when hubby gets home from work to babydance?
The plan, we can’t get the plan together. We were going to have them closer together. I hate buying tests, waiting two weeks, AF playing jokes.
Ok I feel way better!
March 28th, 2010 at 6:31 pm
Nathan
I’m so happy you asked this question so us ladies have some where to vent! I feel like such a failure it makes me feel like im not good enough to even be with my partner, sometimes i wonder to myself why he even sticks around. We’ve been trying for a year and at first it never bothered me when AF showed up but now the more time that passes the worse I feel about it. I hate coming on here sometimes and seeing all these teen pregnancies and people getting abortions it really breaks my heart and fills me with such rage, why them??? why can’t we get pregnant?? His family is always asking when, when are you guys gonna have a baby??? And its like I dont f..ing know when im doing everything I can do! Thank you for asking this I feel alittle bit better now!! ~~~~Baby dust to all who need it~~~~ xxx
March 31st, 2010 at 8:53 pm
Nevaeh
I just get so disappointed and frustrated. I have a 3yo so I KNOW I’m not a failure, I’m blessed and so incredibly thankful I have her, but I want desperately to give her a little brother or sister. I just had a miscarriage in March and it seems since then my desire for another baby is simply overwhelming. I have learned so much about my cycle and what to look for and how to chart ….. I think I was better off when I didn’t know all this crap because now it’s all I ever think about. I finally broke down this month and bought my first opk, found out I’m actually ovulating like 4 or 5 days later than I thought….. so I’m hoping this will be a BIG help and that this could be the month. I tried doing the BD only during fertile time last month, but if I’ve been ovulating later than expected this whole time that wouldn’t have done me one damn bit of good. This month I’ve made it a point to BD every other day….. no exceptions!! It took me 6mos to conceive my daughter and 10mos to conceive my second (miscarriage) so I’m not expecting a miracle, apparantly it just doesn’t come THAT easy for me…… Good luck to all my fellow TTC’ers, OODLES of baby dust to us, and many congratulations to those lucky enough to be getting their BFP’s!!
April 3rd, 2010 at 6:03 am
Xavier
i’ve been lucky enough to get pregnant right away but have miscarried 2x. once last aug and another last december. theres nothing else i think of but having a child of my own. we’re ttc right now but i’m also shit scared for the next 2 weeks before the hpt and if its positive, i just pray that this is it. it was hell with the 2 miscarriages. now that i want a child i see every single prenant woman wherever i go. sucks for me.
April 3rd, 2010 at 7:01 am
Sofia
I’m so happy to read all of the answers on this question, I don’t feel so alone now!! I’ve tried month after month with no avail. My son is 8 years old and I never wanted my children to be this far apart, but it took me a while to find someone I wanted to share my life with now it’s taking even longer to conceive..I have a cousin who has 6 children and is now pregnant with twins, it’s so aggravating to watch everyone around me be sooo happy about having babies, while I sit and stalk my ovulation chart every month. somehow I manage to pick up the pieces after af finally arrives only to be disappointed again the next month!
Now I am on day 45 of my cycle (way past due) and I’m so scared to take another hpt because I’m almost certain it’s going to be a BFN once again.
I pray for everyone out there TTC! Good Luck and much baby dust..keep your heads up girls and stay positive
)